Please if you haven't read my prior posts on this journey, go back and catch up
HERE
"I know it, even in running down the lane to the barn, the diaphragm rising, bracing; this may be it. The hard eucharisteo. Now I know that I don't want to know it yet... Ever.
How to lay the hand open for this moment's bread- when it will hurt.
~Quoted from "One Thousand Gifts" By Ann Voscamp~
Can you believe it?
I can't...
My heart throbs every time I think about it.
For several days I've been trying to pick my book back up, kids interrupting, the phone ringing, dogs needing out, life. Life simply happening kept getting in the way. Frustration was beginning to rise as I tried to remain patient for a moment to steal away and read again.
Thursday morning I took it with me in hopes of gaining a few moments during piano lessons, I got one and a half pages read and then Evie started crying.
But what I read
it scared me and yet
it comforted me.
The HARD eucharisteo
and then... only a few hours later Carter J had a seizure.
on my way to the doctor thinking it was a massive asthma attack the words kept ringing in my heart.
The HARD eucharisteo
Give thanks
Right here, right now
Give thanks
As the day wore on and I learned all that I did I found many ways that God's mighty hand had been holding me. I wasn't able to read on to see how "Ann" found a way to give thanks, I was left on my own to praise God in the midst of a storm.
And do you know something??!!
I found it
REASONS to give thanks!
eucharisteo
God is Faithful, ever so amazingly faithful.
I was not alone for Carter J's seizure, in fact, the amazing woman who was here with me sadly knows all about asthma and was able to confirm my knowledge of seizures.
I read just one page of the book that morning, that one page carried me through the entire day, no... two days!
And on top of those: Look at just a few of my 1,000 gifts:
An amazing oldest son, who has such a gentle heart and yet the heart of a brave leader.
Taye, learning a new skill, the skill of fencing!
My precious little girl, she seems to have music flowing in her veins, she spends LOTS of time "playing" at the piano with big smiles and always turning around to see if we all approve of her playing.
okay, I know lots of people will shake their heads at this one. But HONESTLY one wonderful thing in this week has been that nintendo ds... I have seriously HATED this thing since the day we bought it to be played on vacations in the car. However, we have been to a million doctor appointments and FINALLY got to take the big boys to their fencing tournament. With Carter J on steroids (awful awful) it is truly a beautiful thing to have him so occupied in a public setting.
Caleb and Jaden competed in a fencing tournament last night, Jaden (left) getting suited up for his bout.
Caleb big smiles after a bout won.
Jaden came in first in his group and Caleb came in second in his. GREAT JOB my mighty fencers!
Jaden in the black pants, LOOK at that GREAT form for that lunge!
(that big guy is toast)
seeds started indoors, prayerfully they will feed my family one day!
My happy seed helper
nice enough weather to be outside
